It’s been almost a year now since I started blogging but recently I’ve felt that I haven’t been willing to be personal enough. I haven’t used this  media outlet to display who I am and what I feel. When i first started on blogger(Fuck blogger, Wordpress FTW!) I was in school with free time to be able to write about issues I felt were relevant to myself and society. But recently I have noticed; the more I was posting the fewer words I had been using. More or less posting  material objects or musical inspiration I had felt relevant. When starting this blog I wanted it to be more than material possessions: an extension of myself. An avenue to display my work, inspirations, heroes, loves, hatreds, and interests. I’ve often fought with myself on how personal to get while blogging, how much am I willing to reveal? What am I willing to share and how will each post portray myself? After all this is the Redef clothing blog and what does my personal trials and tribulations have to do with that? Maybe nothing but maybe everything?

Hopefully, the answer is everything because I’m about to become a lot more personal. I’ve been working and developing some interesting projects lately that I am very excited about and will introduce very soon. A lot of work and effort, yet I haven’t felt that my full potential is being reached.  Why is this? I asked myself countless times. I may have figured it out.

What is holding me back? The answer: Myself.

How do I correct this? I have no idea. In everyone there is an eternal struggle of good and evil. What is the right decision and which is wrong? A friend and personal hero Gavin Sheppard told me recently that 2008 is “the Year of Good Decisions”. I know it’s August but it’s not too late to change everything and turn my “lefts” to rights. I have decided to challenge myself and remove my personal inner evils to determine how to become a better man. As you, the reader, as my witness, I am removing all alcohol, weed, fast food, and over-spending from my life for the next 40 days. I want to determine how this will affect my productivity, creativity and mind state.

For the next 40 days I will be blogging how I am affected by removing these evils I have been SO accustomed to. Today has been day 1 with a few temptations, but an overall better feeling both physically and mentally.

Productivity: I was able to accomplish all planned tasks for the day. Nothing too crazy. A normal 12 hour work day of running around and meeting people around the city.

Creativity: Took a couple pictures and did some photo editing. Nothing really too creative. I hope to be able to work more on the Redef line tomorrow.

Mindstate: Incredibly clear after only one day of cutting my diet of a couple blunts a day out.

Temptation: Around people smoking but with zero temptation to cheat.