Last night I was up until about 4:30am working and reading, followed by watching the last hour of Ghostbusters 2 on CityTV. Something I had forgot about was the fact that no weed for me often equates to insomnia. I’m usually pretty nocturnal; often up late working or just fucking around but I could always rely on a joint to put me to sleep when I felt I had accomplished what I needed to. Last night was a struggle to get to sleep, tossing and turning. Finally my eyes got heavy and I drifted off into a world that I often feel I can control.

That control became irrelevant when my mind began to create some vivid storylines of the past. Dreams so realistic I was waking up to the sound of my heart beating and my fist clenching my pillow. Nightmares!

As human beings we sleep about a third of our lives away, but is that really an issue when we are able to create another reality in our minds? Living in a world with no barriers, no limits, where anything is possible, and stories are scripted beyond the rules of our reality. Often times I am able to draw inspiration from this realm of dreams, but when it turns on me it creates an inner hell. Trapped by my own eyelids.

The nightmares were developed from stories of the past and the vivid reality a side effect of mental dependency to a non-addictive substance. Possibly the first step in conquering my inner evils.

Productivity-Despite the nightmares I was able to wake up much easier this morning and begin working on the line before work. Even after 8 hours at work I still felt energized to come home and put in more work as opposed to smoking and sitting in front of “the box”.

Creativity-The nightmares were actually beneficial to my imagination, and it worked out well while working this morning.

Mind State- My head feels extremely clear after just two days, I’m excited to see how I feel tomorrow.

Temptation- Often times when trying to demonstrate self-control while friends around me were smoking, eating McDonalds, or drinking it was the sweet aromas that dragged me in. Today these aromas developed a craving that I was able to overcome but they still created weakness.