I know, it’s been a little while since the last update. But there was something I hadn’t equated into this project: Reality. As a heavy weed smoker a surrealistic state of highness often takes over your life. Sure, you are living your life, however it is often very care free and the smallest realities lie unnoticed. After 8 days of not smoking, these realities are increasing and many critical decision lie ahead of me.

This is not what this post is about however, I would like to dedicate this post to Mothers. At birth, we put you into one of the most terrifying positions in life; a parent. As human beings we are born alone, die alone, and even in a room full of friends we are truly alone. This becomes figuratively untrue if we are lucky enough to become parents. We become responsible for another living being, a piece of our flesh, and the legacy to our life.

Mama, I have become the heir to your legend. A woman able to care and love, no matter the circumstance. Any negative action or reaction always counteracted with your love. Whether it be a shoulder to cry on or tough love I always know you care. Frequently pride and ego hide my true feelings, but I understand you are only helping me to better myself. As I move closer to my dreams, I want you to know you are one of the greatest inspirations in my life. Your continuous support helps fuel my aspirations.

I love you beyond words.

Productivity: Over the last few days my productivity has been below expectations. My job has been extremely busy taking up much of the time I would like to be working on Redef projects.

Creativity: Again, work has seemingly exhausted my brain past it’s limits.

Mindstate: The mental dependency to the marijuana has created a confusing state of happy depression. If that is even possible. I remain overall more joyful but small issues seem to put me into a sad state very easily.

Temptation: I haven’t felt an overwhelming desire to succumb to any of my inner evils, however, Pineapple Express would have been even funnier high lol.